No More Procrastination
OK, I’ve put this off long enough. In the beginning, I had originally planned to give weekly updates of my recovery progress. I am recovering from a total knee replacement of my left knee on September 9th. If you read my first post, only then to be disappointed that they did not continue, you’re not the only one.
There are a lot of reasons why I have not kept it up. Mostly however, is this recovery has been way more difficult than I thought it would be. My pain levels at times have been unimaginable. I am sure the chronic pain issues that I have suffered for years are big factors and all of them combined with the added pain of major surgery have made a sort of a “perfect storm” for pain! I have good days and bad days. The bad days usually follow too much activity, either self-inflicted or unintentionally cause by PT. (Physical Therapy)
I truly appreciate every prayer and well wishing from all. To be honest, I can’t see the other side from here but I am confident that these prayers will win the day and I will see a new tomorrow.
So last Tuesday I had my 6-week surgery follow up. My surgeon could see that there was a lot of swelling still. This explains my lack of flexion or the ability to bend the new joint properly. He also checked the extension. He feels although it was not completely flat, it would eventually be.
He suggested that I take time off from PT, prescribed prednisone, light personal PT on my bike (only 1/4 of the way around then back) and wants to see me in 2 weeks. I was happy with that because I was in a lot of pain from Monday’s therapy. So we’ll see.
I felt so great Thursday (Octoberr 24th) that I did what I considered to be a tiny bit of activities. Yet certain “others” whom I’ll leave unidentified for personal reasons, may have a differing opinion. Anyway, here’s what I did … Took the trash bins to the street and later brought them back. I did my bike thing 3x for 2-1/2 minute sessions throughout the day. Did 15 minutes (or so) worth of light gardening in the afternoon. (because it was such a nice day)
By 10pm, I had became sadly aware that I had done way too much. Pain level rose to the ugly numbers. Since then, it’s been a real struggle. I can’t sleep well, which impedes my healing progress. It seems that every body part hurts. I have such high anxiety over ROM (range of motion), work, family and whatever else my seemingly unstable mind thinks.
Figuring It Out
I could take the ultra Christian “faith” view where all of these things are attacks against me to keep me down. To which I respond easily, it could be. Or I could take a more conservative Christian view which expresses faith that God can heal instantly, over time, though the skill of a doctor or even by death. And then there is a more secular or worldly view which goes something like this, “Dude! They took a hammer and a saw to your knee. What were you expecting? Of course you’re gonna have pain. And it’s gonna take time to heal, a long time“
I actually feel that I can believe all these views and still have much faith. I’m learning the older I get and the more pain that I suffer, there is only one problem. We are made out of dirt.
For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust.Psalms 103:14 (NKJV)
So, I’ll push on in all my fragility, trying to keep my eyes clearly focused on that which I know. My God is with me.